Baby Haters.

I've been meaning to express my frustration with this matter for quite some time now and I think my anger with it has come to an all time high today so here goes.


Babies are fucking cute.
Babies are BABIES. They're tiny and soft and their eyes are filled with fascination ALL THE TIME.
Babies are amazing and they always make me smile.

Sure they poo, and cry, and throw fits, BUT FUCK....SO DO YOU!!! And crying and bitching and bodily functions are may more annoying and 10x more gross in big people than in babies. And at least they bitch about shit that matters...I don't know like...eating, pain, and wanting to be with people who love them.

My generation of people, the 19 - 20-something year olds, hate babies. I know this girl at school who will literally verbally attack you if you mention the idea of having babies. Not about HER having babies, but about ANYONE having babies. She thinks it's the most selfish, narcissistic, and disgusting thing people can do. Why do I know this? She's not my friend. Oh, no no no. She had a fit in class and decided to tell all this to the class once someone started talking about creating offspring. Talk about some repressed childhood fucked up shit.

She's a sassy neurotic bitch. But that's besides the point.

WHY? Why!?!?!?! I don't get it. It's how YOU were given life you idiot. And I'm not saying everyone should have babies. In fact many people should really NOT have babies, but for those who want them, don't hate. Don't hate the idea and don't hate the baby when you walk by one in public that's crying.

I know so many people that hate babies. Some friends, some not. Hell, even my professor the other day made some snarky comment about not liking babies and not thinking they're cute.

My generation is like...the opposite of the baby boomer generation. It is the baby hater generation. And it makes me really upset. I don't know maybe it'll help with ridiculous population growth or something.

What happened to seeing the beauty in having children? Family? Teaching amazing things to someone else? Sacrificing you life for another human and WANTING to do it with every fiber of your being? Why is the idea of children only losing money, stress, a burden, and simply a pain in the ass these days?

I'm really tired of hanging out with my age group, passing by children, and then listening to them complain about kids and how they should shut up or stay locked up at home away from "people," and then swearing to never have kids. It's all usually matched with a distorted facial expression emphasizing disgust. Some gag.

I have kids in my family. A 5 year old niece and a 3 year old nephew. I have another niece and nephew on the way. And I love it. Seeing them is the best part of my life sometimes. And people swear that all kids do is yell and scream and cry and bitch. But really people, it's not that hard. When kids are bad, it's usually the parents or caretakers fault. Communicating with kids is so simple, but because we're the baby haters we just yell "No!" and "Don't!" and "Stop!" We forget that they are people. Little people, sure. But people. Just talk to them. Teach them. Explain to them. It's really quite amazing. And it may not work every time, but they're KIDS. Enjoy all the beautiful things: their honesty, their ability to tell the best jokes and say the funniest shit you'll ever hear, their thoughts and personality at work and in progress. It's awesome.

So please.
Stop trippin' and don't hate.

Not writing.

I haven't posted as often because I've gone away from writing recently. Mostly I'm drawing and painting.

In the middle of each project I sketch out 3 more ideas I need to do. That "need to do" pile has been growing exponentially and I thank summer for the time it will allow.

So here's a summary of me that has been on canvases and drawing paper and not in writing:

Regrets:

not kissing him
being a bitch that one time

Happinesses:

yoga
shandise and kailee
hip hop
coloring my own hair...turquoise!

future:

art history in italy
atlanta in summer
internship at a design firm...???
designing my "be nice" campaign and my israeli/palestinian series posters
summer concerts: muse, the offspring, and 311

kthxbyeee

Balls.

I really wish men would use their genitals for the right reasons.

Instead of wanting to have sex with everything, why don't you build a little fuckin' courage?

Just sayin'.

CDs to buy.

New Buffalo
Dustin O'Halloran
Komeda
Broken Bells
We Are Standard
Prototypes
Astrid Swan
Doktor Kosmos
Beangrowers

and many other artists on Minty Fresh Records

Every damn time.

I really need to stop watching those finding yourself and falling in love with the perfect person movies that I love so much because really, they just make me depressed as hell. Happy for about 2.5 hours and then depressed as hell.

It's cliche and annoying, but I really don't give a fuck.

A moment of your time.

Can I just take this time to say that I'm really happy?

Friends are so good. All of them.
School is so good, challenging, but manageable. My projects are actually pretty cool and I'm getting into them. And reading War & Peace has got to be one of the most amazing experiences I've had with literature.
I have time for my art. I'm drawing, I'm writing, I'm painting.
I'm only further enjoying hanging out with all these new amazing people in life.
I've met a guy that is currently being a fun and adorable flirtation for me, and that's it for now and I know it which makes it fun instead of stressful. And I'm not obsessive about making it more than that because it's just fun...as a new friend.
My new best friend is proving to be one of the most amazing girls I've ever met. And I can't wait to sit by the pool with her today as well as other awesome friends.

It's crazy because you get so caught up in the fun and joyfulness that you forget to step back and notice it. You forget to stop in your tracks and look at everything and just think..."Thank you. Thank you God. Thank you life. Thank you loved ones. Just thank you." Normally it's the bad that's so easy to notice, but I'm taking this moment to notice...all this.

WARNING.

Everything annoys me today.

So I sit by myself and work for fear of bitching someone out which I will regret later.

I need a nice, beautiful glass of wine.

Aghem.

I'm spinning here
alone
watching everything become
everything
arms twisted up
above

up above up above up above

Force drives me
crazy
seeing blurry things
clearly
heart stay still
here

still here still here still here

This morning, I woke up.

Feeling brand new.

I had what I can say to be a pretty amazing night last night - just me and Shan being ridiculous and laughing to the point of no return.

"Dude ur def like my best friend here...thanks so much guch" (She calls me guch, short for gucci...it's a long story)

^best text message ever

Great night and chill morning with some amazing (and new) people in this life of mine.
Everything else - the part where people don't treat me right but all I want to do is be good with them again - is finally not the first thing on my mind today.

You know how I do.

girl actin' like a bitch
breakin ma heart
tearin everything apart
all for no god damn reason
tis the season
to put it in the past
what once was first
must now be the last

I mean...I'm just sayin'

I've been listening to a lot of hip hop lately...a lot. And I don't mean the nonsense stuff. I mean the good shit. And for some ridiculous reason, rap lines started coming together in my head. That shit you just read? It has a fuckin' beat to it too.

Cathartic as hell and also makes me laugh pretty hard-- straight through the tears.

Don't hate.