What if it happens

what if it all falls out again
what if i have to face the decision of lying to the world again or baring my shiny head to the world.

what if all these years of doctors and treatments falls through my hands in one fell swoop

what if i have to make up stories again to explain why I can't spend the night or why I can't go swimming or why I spazzed when you went to touch my head.

well, you think i'm crazy?

well what if you had to go back to the worst time in your life and live it again knowing it was the second time around.