Wavy hair day.

Today, I am happy and content.

I've always hated the apathetic--people who don't give a shit.

But honestly, a little apathy does a person good. Caring so much about every little thing can drive a person, particular the little woman I call myself, absolutely mad.

I'm a stress case. A 24-hour over analyst that thinks too much about silly things and stresses about too many things I wish I could just relax about. Apathy is a fine balance of allowing yourself to let go of your control without chaos erupting everywhere. And I think what's brought me to this point is seeing three amazing friends that I hadn't seen in a really long time. Being with them was so good--carefree even. And it just reminded me, despite it all, life is good and I shouldn't worry too much. Things will take their course and I needn't stress over every moment of them doing so because sometimes, as much as we live this life, things aren't really in our control. Yes, we make decisions to do and not to do. But at the end of it all, things can't be forced.

Reaching this plateu is letting me breathe easier. I'm caring. I'm compassionate. Probably too much for my own good. That won't change, but letting myself find a little apathy towards different situations I simply have to admit I have no control over is probably much healthier and all around better.

I woke up really early this morning, earlier than I have in about a year. I felt saucy and fancy free so I wore my hair wavy to match. And after watching Up yesterday for the second time, and enjoying a late lunch at the park, AND enjoying a perfect summer afternoon nap with a lovely lady whom I enjoyed conversation and laughter with, I vowed to early morning Hiking Fridays, Disneyland atleast once a week, and unashamedly blasting Britney Spears on my drive home last night.

Invigoration makes me delve into every guilty pleasure I have.